My Piece of Mind

Like every girl in this planet, I don't like to be reminded of my age. I still feel I am freaking young in age of 24 and unmarried. Oddly enough, I feel GOOD for being UNMARRIED yet. I am still thinking that I am too young to actually settle down and make babies. I felt that if I am getting married at this age, I am so gonna screw up every thing.

I am not prepared to have a crying babies begging for food in the middle of the night as I can't even be bothered to wake up when I heard a loud noise in the living room. I am not prepared enough to be a good housewife coz I hate doing dishes and cleaning bathrooms. I am so not prepared to be nice to bitchy in-laws and their followers (not that my-might-be-in-laws-are-bitchy, they are perfectly fine) And certainly, I am so not prepared to lost all of those opportunities of being unmarried and young and vain.

Fine, there are some people think they are old enough to built families in their early 20s. Fine! Go do your getting married early and making tonnes of babies at your early 20s. I do not have anything go against you. Because getting married or not, that's your own choice and its your life not mine! BUT when one started to press on the idea of ME should be GETTING MARRIED SOON, that's just plain annoying. I have been explaining about the reasons why me and him are not planning to get married anytime soon over and over again. Even my mom can understand why we, both are so not ready, mentally and financially. We both still wants to spend more time to explore all of the opportunities we can have when we are unmarried.

Sigh. Some people are just pushy, ain't they? Please, for godsake, understand and actually listen to what I said. I am not READY. I am not even an EXPERT in being a kick-ass secretary. How can you expect me to be a kick-ass housewife and mother?? tell me.

Stuck

For no apparent reason, this song stuck on my head =(

Sunset
Marques Houston

I remember the day you first told me that
I was the man that had your heart
from that day forth i knew that nothing would
evee come and tear us apart

so then people try to warn me about you
said that i should never trust you
but so stupid me i didn't listen then
i let myself go fall in love with you

(what happened to us)
you were supposed to be my future
but do i really have to take it right back
(are you really in love)
or was i just a game to prove to yourself
you could get a man

you're more beautiful than anything in this world
more precious than the rarest diamond or pearl
and even though we didn't work out together
you're still my sunset-set-set-set
and i know that you and i are two worlds apart
but you'll always be the one to have my heart
i'm gonna love you for now and forever
cause you're my sunset-set-set-set-set

your innocent smile used to drive me wild
even though you ain't innocent at all
and now i feel so stupid cause i'm the only man
that ever loved you even with all your flaws

even your best friend questioned why
i still wanted to be with you after knowing your past
but she didn't understand in knowing your past
was why i thought we could past

(what happened to us)
we had something special but
was i not good enough for youet
(are you really in love)
catch some flowers fly because without even trying
i still ended up hurting you and i'm sorry

you're more beautiful than anything in this world
more precious than the rarest diamond or pearl
and even though we didn't work out together
you're still my sunset-set-set-set
and i know that you and i are two worlds apart
but you'll always be the one to have my heart
i'm gonna love you for now and forever
cause you're my sunset-set-set-set-set

maybe one day we'll end up talking again
maybe one day we'll go back to being just friends
promise to love you baby till my life ends
cause you're my sunset-set-set-set-set

no matter what happened between me and you
i'll always be the man that you could run to
i loved you then i love you now and forever
cause you're my sunset-set-set-set-set-set

A.L.O.N.E

Something is definitely very very very wrong with me.
I used to hate spending any minute outside of my house alone.
I dislike being alone.
Up until recently..
I drove out from the house, got it scratched when I was on the way to the parking lots, went to gramed and purchased three books. Spent at least one and half hour in the mall. alone.
I went to have my nails done at o.p.i nails. alone.
I went to have a massage at ras. alone.
I went up to cambridge to meet with a buyer. alone.
See?
Something is definitely wrong with me.
I think I am soon to be a loner..
I don't really feel like going out anymore as well.
Only when it's necessary for me to go out or because its weekends.
Or is it a sign that I finally wants to move on and be independent?
well well well,
I hope this habit sticks looooooong enough.
then I won't have to spend so much money on the unnecessary stuffs.
haha!

Kiss Mark for Sheila