eventually..

I am the most annoying and demanding bitch in this whole world when I WANT something so badly. And most of the time, I GET what I WANT. No matter what it takes. But this time, I got beat down by the immigration for failing to get visa-sponsor from a company that I want to work for. I also failed to grab on a thin line that has become an addiction and necessity (mind you, its not drugs or booze or ciggies). A thin line that, literally, has turned into an obsessive compulsive disorder. And believe me, it didn't end up well for me. It's ugly, messy and bloody (okays, not really bloody.. I was just exaggrating things!)
Two failures came at the same time.
It is bloody right?=(
oh well..
I have *finally* come around to accept the point that you can't always have what you want.
Something(s) are just not meant to be yours.
All you can do is put on a big smiley face and be tough.
Because whatever it is, if it doesn't kill you, it will only make you stronger...
or so I heard..

Well well well..

Its kinda late now..
Gotta go to bed and to work tomorrow.. haix..
And I'm gonna go to this Urban Jazz Crossover @ JWM thing tomorrow..
I hope its gonna be fun!
I need FUN!
taa~